Considerations

I have been looking through my blog, and I am considering deleting some posts... but then again, this is like my story about my life. I shouldn't take away stuff, but add new, because I have become more mature.

Anywho. I doubt people actually look at this blog, but in case they do, I have made a deviantart!

http://www.ObliviousNeko.deviantart.com

I have been doing more art stuff lately. Although, I doubt I will be doing this much long due to school =.=

Hello again, my friend.

So, I've realized it has been about forever since I've last posted on here! I rarely use this blog anymore (thank you, tumblr for taking over... -.-) but I still remember this! :D
Life has been good, although it has had its up and downs for sure.
Uhm. Summer has been going well, even though it wasn't very eventful. Oh well! I relaxed a lot. :3

Love,
Jac.

I hate it when....

I hate it when I see someone a zillion times and still don't know their name.
I hate it when I see that someone for the zillionth and twenty-second time and still can't contain
My curiosity.
I hate it when he stares at me,
And I stare right on back
Wondering what he's planning,
Wondering if he's going to attack.
I hate it when I'm wondering around
And it feels as if you're following me.
I hate that you won't just talk to me.
I hate it when you won't open your mouth just once...
Or smile.
But you just stare.
I hate it when I can't find words worth-while
Typing.

Jesus Loves Me, This I Know.

Today I have church. I usually would dread this day, but for some reason, I'm feeling very excited. I'm going to be bold and talk to people! No one really ever talks to me (Except for Lucas, but that's because he's the coolest thing since beans.) but I will attempt to make friends. Because, well, I need them, and I will be going to a public school (if i can get into a good one... with my grades? only God knows!)

I need a hug. Ya know what? I'm going to get one today! :D And I will get this shirt. Sometime. Who knows when. But I will get it! <3 Share the love!




Peace, Love, and Exiled to the Oblivious:

Jac. <3

Best week yet? :]]

This week (or last, I should say?) has been the best so far this year.
Last Tuesday (the 23rd) I went to the AP tour and saw Hey Monday, the Cab, the Summer Set, Every Avenue, and, last but certainly not least: NeverShoutNever. I thought the bands were great, but Christofer Drew Ingle and his team of amazing musicians just blew the rest away (sorry guys! I still love you all!)
I recorded him on my iPod and felt really stupid, but Joe wanted to see him because he couldn't go, soo...
He played quiet a few of his beautiful songs. One of my dreams is to preform with many different musicians I look up to, such as NSN, but when I started singing along with his songs, in the same room for about an hour, not even 10 feet away from him... I thought, "Hey, who cares if I'll never get up on stage with him? This is more than enough!" And I was so so happy. <3 At the beginning Chris asked us to all smile on the count of three, and he did this goofy big smile that made me laugh out loud. He was just adorable and I couldn't stop smiling after that.
When he sang "Jane Doe" I swear he was looking right at me... or the chick next to me. She was pretty dang gorgeous. Whatever.
When he played BigCityDreams", he got all crazy and danced on stage and got really close to edge and just sat there, holding other girl's hands (*frowns*) but well kinda made this huge pile of girls and cameras around Christofer. Then He waved at me and the people around me. I was so happy and waved back, haha. <3 Ah. Best concert ever. Too bad I won't be able to see them again when the Warped Tour comes around... I'll be at summer camp (*echoes*) Camp, camp...camp...camp.... o.o''

After that crazy Tuesday, Friday came right around and I went to my first ever Anime Convention! It was so amazing. A bit slow, but cool.... a dude that sorta like was there. But so was his girlfriend. So I kept my distance because I felt so awkward... I am really new to groups and people and things ya know? So I really didn't know what to expect, but surprisingly, people were pretty nice to me. I cosplayed as Itachi from Naruto and Kiwi went with me as Sasuke. Then on the last day, Sunday, I went as Christofer Drew Ingle. yes, I am a dork! D: Don't hate me! >//> I was so cute in my new snazzy hat...
Oh. I guess Chris lost his hat a couple days after playing in my city... I should give him my hat if I see him ever again. :D Haha. Man, I feel so obsessed over NSN lately! Stupid amazing concert. Why did they music have to be so good?!

Ich Liebe du,
Jac <3

Masochist?!

Okay. I have this thing for piercings. I think they are amazing and beautiful. Well, instead of cutting myself, I just pierced my ear... again. 4 piercings total. I feel so masochistic. It feels so good when the metal goes through my flesh.
I thinking about taking it out... ha. My mom is going to be so mad. My dad will probably lecture me.

In other news:
Brother Robert is out of North Korean and back in the U.S.A.! I am so thankful. That man is amazing and we all miss him so much... I keep praying for him and I shall continue to do this. :]

Ahh, NeverShoutNever tickets...are...so...expensive. $60 at the least. I better work my AZZ (Arizona LOL) off! Me and Kiwi still want to go to that con that weekend...
<3

I Love You 5,
Jac

"Love is unconditional; Trust is fleeting."

Well, so far this semester is going awesome!
I have almost all A's... except for this D in Algebra. I understand it, thank God.
Then again, all my A's went down to B's. No need to fret, for I shall raise them up!
Anywho. Me and Kiwi made two new friends at the mall last month. Their names are Yumi and Aim. I talk to Yumi the most, mostly because he's younger than Aim, who is 17 and also because.... well, I don' know! I just like talking to him a tab bit more than Aim. I guess because when we hung out at the mall Yumi-chan talked more than Aimy...

I was talking to Yumi the other day and it wasn't in such high spirits. It's like... When I first met him, I knew he was hurt, because under all a persons beauty and smiles is some kind of pain. I guess I could relate to him a bit more?
I was upset the other day because a friend of mine told a secret to another friend... and it was one of those secrets that you can only tell certain people, otherwise they look at you differently. So I asked for advice from Onee-chan... whether or not I should forgive my friend. He told me that "Love is unconditional, but trust is fleeting". That was the best advice I had ever been given in a long time.

In other news, I'm learning a new song on my guitar, called "Te Quiero Tanto" and it's so pretty. <3


Love,
Jac